I havent posted in a while because i didnt no what to say or how to say it but i feel like its time..

I was kicked out of the barn at the begining of june. Im no longer aloud to ride there because my trainer is mad at my dad.

this means that im no longer aloud to ride freedom or see freedom.  obviously this was crushing i miss him all the time. every time i ride i think about him. He was the first horse i ever really loved and he will always have a special place in my heart. 

I wanted to buy him but my trainer is so angry she would "rather shot that horse in the head" than sell him to me. I dont know what else to do. 

Im not even sure if i want to keep ridding.

 im looking for a horse but i worry i wont love the horse.

this is my last post.

Rode freedom in the field today with kat. Emily took pics! (shes putting them on my blog soon). Flat was great until we worked on bending and going round...that didnt go over well with freedom. He gave in for a little while but would start throwing his head around eventually. Hoping he'll be better @ it soon. Jumping was worse. he was jumping everything too big and we had no brakes ohh freedom, jumping in the feild makes him so happy he forgets to listen. 

Rode freedom in the field today. Jumped a couple jumps, but mostly galloped around, he had sooo much fun. then we went on a trail ride. normally he spooks @ everything, but today he was perfect. sooo hot!!!!!! lesson friday (:

Just Playing in the indoor with freedom & kate (: 

Showed freedom today. We stared of getting 4th out of 5 in our flat :/ Then we got 3rd out of 5 when he knocked a rail. 5th out of five when i hit my face on the saddle over a jump cuz freedom decided he wasnt going to listen. But we finished strong with a 2nd out of five. Im so proud of him considering he just started work again this friday night, and he hasnt jumped in the field since last year. 

Freedom is still lame. I rode a pony named Abbey instead. shes normally a really awkward jumper, but i figured out tht if you stay in a half-seat the whole time shes sooooo much better. We jumped a couple of a different courses,she listened really well, and she did lead changes too! Hopefully freedom will be better by sunday, because we have a horse show...

....Freedom just became rideable friday...ive only ridden him twice since then...i go down to tack him up today...and his back right is swollen and has heat in it....fml...the best part is we have a show this sunday...i hate life...

Rode freedom for the first time since his injury last night (: flat was PERFECT. Small jumps were great, but when we tryed to jump a big oxer he kept refuseing :/ i think he was just nervous and his knee was starting to act up....

...still havent ridden since his injury 

Woke up early (530) to go hose freedoms leg. we put his leg in a trash can and let it fill over for 20 minutes. He was suchh a goood boy for it. The swelling has already gone down. (:

..... I want to cry... Freedom was out in the feild this morning. Meri (my trainer) went to get him because the farrier was here to dohis shoes. When she went to get him, the other horse in the feild wanted to get out first so he (ty) kicked freedom in the kneee. His knee is so swollen and he cant be ridden for about 3 weeks :( hes in a lot of pain  and i feel so bad for him. 

Last night was awesome (: rode freedom with kate, he was an angel. We worked on inside bend and he did a great job! we jumped a few and FAILED @ cavileties!! ohh well he tried really hard. Then we worked on trotting and jumping in hand, it was hilarious

well today was interesting. i was just warming freedom up for meris next lesson and i guess the wind got to him, because he did a huge buck and threw me on the ground. this was only the third time ive fallen off of him, luckily i landed on my feet. Lunged him and got back on. After that, he was an angel. 

Worked on lead changes with freedom last night. He did a great job even though he realized that a ground pole means lead change, so im guessing he didnt learn much lol. then we worked on his bowing skills and trotting in hand (: gotta love him, he kept tripping over his own feet the whole time. 

Had a show earlier today. Freedom hadnt been ridden in like 3 weeks, and he did amazing. we got champion in our division and got 5 out of the 10 points we need to qualify for MHJ (: Freedom is finally home. Im kinda pissed though, while he was and the other barn he lost weight and got rain rot :( 

Rode evil pony noah yesterday for about two seconds without stirrups. When he took off across the ring and woudnt stop i decided it was a better idea to lunge him. Then i went home and rode an OTTB named Eeyore. We dont really get along.....at all. but hes a good horse to jump on. We jumped 2'9 or so. the more i ride other horses the more i wish freedom was home.... :( Ridding baby brayton, an other OTTB, today (: Horse show this sunday with dumb and bayyyyyyy!!!

P.S ignore my bad eq at the canter, his canter is wickedddd weird, and its hard to find a rhythm 

Only Freedom would get stuck in the trailer & then jump down the ramp...ohhh gossh :) gotta love him

Rode Freedom friday night at Sandy's barn. he was such a good boy he jumped over a street sweeper & a huge black tube ! Yesterday was cape cod hunter. he did an awesome job for his first big show of the season. Wish he was home...miss him lots :/

Found out meri ( my trainer) is sending freedom to a different barn till May 1st :(

i will only be able to ride him once a week

but i can still show him :/

until he gets back i get to school a two year old  horse named Brayton

Cape Cod Hunter with freedom this weekend 

showing in MHJ 2'6 

kinda nervous...

rode freedom last night (: he decided that he didnt want to be collected & trucked me around the ring. ugh! he kept taking off & was a sped over fences. 

oh well gotta love him 

Jumped Freedom 3'3 for the first time today

he did an amazing job

im sooooo proud (: